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<channel><title><![CDATA[Chris Crowe, Author and Teacher - Blog]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/blog.html]]></link><description><![CDATA[Blog]]></description><pubDate>Mon, 14 Nov 2011 09:54:05 -0700</pubDate><generator>Weebly</generator><item><title><![CDATA[New Book!]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2011/07/new-book.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2011/07/new-book.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Mon, 18 Jul 2011 13:05:41 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2011/07/new-book.html</guid><description><![CDATA[I just heard from Candlewick Press that my next book, Just as Good: How Larry Doby Changed America's Game, will be released on January 24, 2012.&nbsp; This is my first children's book, and it's illustrated by Mike Benny, an award-winning artist with the perfect touch&nbsp;to illustrate&nbsp;a baseball story.Larry Doby was the first African American player in the American League; he joined the  [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div  class="paragraph editable-text" style=" text-align: left; ">I just heard from Candlewick Press that my next book, <STRONG><EM>Just as Good: How Larry Doby Changed America's Game, </EM></STRONG>will be released on January 24, 2012.&nbsp; This is my first children's book, and it's illustrated by Mike Benny, an award-winning artist with the perfect touch&nbsp;to illustrate&nbsp;a baseball story.<br /><br />Larry Doby was the first African American player in the American League; he joined the Cleveland Indians in 1947, just a few weeks after Jackie Robinson started the season with the Brooklyn Dodgers in the National League.&nbsp; Doby endured all the same abuse as Robinson, but his story is known only by a handful of fans.&nbsp; His rookie season was a disappointment, but in 1948, he had a great year and led the Indians to the most recent World Series title.&nbsp; My book focuses on a single game in the World Series.<br /><br />Anyway, it's nice to have another book on its way.&nbsp; I can't wait to finish the revisions on my next novel.<br /><br /></div>  <div  class="paragraph editable-text" style=" text-align: left; "><span></span></div>  ]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Utah: A Great Place for Writers]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/11/utah-a-great-place-for-writers.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/11/utah-a-great-place-for-writers.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Thu, 11 Nov 2010 08:51:34 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/11/utah-a-great-place-for-writers.html</guid><description><![CDATA[Our local public radio station, KUER-FM, had a nice piece this morning on Utah being such a terrific place for people who write for children and teens.&nbsp; Here's the link to that broadcast:  [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div  class="paragraph editable-text" style=" text-align: left; ">Our local public radio station, KUER-FM, had a nice piece this morning on Utah being such a terrific place for people who write for children and teens.&nbsp; Here's the link to that broadcast:<BR><SPAN></SPAN> <P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoPlainText><A href="http://www.publicbroadcasting.net/kuer/news.newsmain/article/0/0/1724251/KUER.Local.News/Utah.Writers.Target.KidTeen.Market"><FONT color=#800080 size=3 face=Consolas>http://www.publicbroadcasting.net/kuer/news.newsmain/article/0/0/1724251/KUER.Local.News/Utah.Writers.Target.KidTeen.Market</FONT></A><BR><SPAN></SPAN><BR><SPAN></SPAN>Most of the interviews for this piece were done at the Provo City Library's first-ever Teen Book Festival, a terrif</P></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Blog Post on "Throwing Up Words"]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/11/blog-post-on-throwing-up-words.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/11/blog-post-on-throwing-up-words.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Thu, 04 Nov 2010 18:44:54 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/11/blog-post-on-throwing-up-words.html</guid><description><![CDATA[See my blog post on the blog, "Throwing Up Words," that's run by Carol Lyn [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div  class="paragraph editable-text" style=" text-align: left; ">See my blog post on the blog, "Throwing Up Words," that's run by Carol Lyn</div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Readers Write: "Naomi's Story: A Sequel to Mississippi Trial, 1955" by Mora Novey]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/readers-write-naomis-story-a-sequel-to-mississippi-trial-1955-by-mora-novey.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/readers-write-naomis-story-a-sequel-to-mississippi-trial-1955-by-mora-novey.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Sat, 29 May 2010 14:35:54 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/readers-write-naomis-story-a-sequel-to-mississippi-trial-1955-by-mora-novey.html</guid><description><![CDATA[Mora NoveySomonauk High School [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div  class="paragraph" style=" text-align: left; "><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CLOCALU%7E1%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml"><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CLOCALU%7E1%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_themedata.thmx"><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CLOCALU%7E1%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_colorschememapping.xml"><strong style="">Mora Novey</strong><br><strong style="">Somonauk High School</strong><br><strong style="">Somonauk, Illinois</strong><br><br>  <span style="font-size: 18pt;">Naomi&rsquo;s Story</span><br><span style="font-size: 14pt;">Chapter One</span><br><span style="font-size: 14pt;"></span><br>  <span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>R.C.&rsquo;s face full of fury floated in my head, and then his body morphed together like a gooey monster.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>His nose was all bloody, and his arms were full of scratches from the whipping.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Pa emerged next to him, looking like the Devil himself with red eyes, a whip in his hand and his countenance spelling out rage.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Then R.C. took eight years of hatred, deepest loathing, rejection, and anger out.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He lunged at Pa, just punching, hitting, and kicking anywhere he could.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I screamed, cryin&rsquo;, so confused and hurt.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I tried pulling R.C. off him, but he pushed me away, and relentlessly attacked him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Blood oozed down Pa&rsquo;s face as he fell to the floor, but R.C. kept beating him&hellip;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I screamed and screamed, sobbing hysterically, thinking my brother was a murderer&hellip; My sobs echoed throughout our shack, ringing in my ears&hellip;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi&hellip; Naomi&hellip;&rdquo; Jesse&rsquo;s voice intertwined with my screaming.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>She shook me, or was it R.C. pushing me out of the way?<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Wake up Naomi.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>She pushed me so violently that I fell on the floor, waking up, still screaming, my face drenched in tears.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Abruptly, I stopped screaming, and Jesse rushed over to me, giving me a huge bear hug.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Tears ran down her cheeks.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I heard you screamin&rsquo; from my room,&rdquo; she whispered.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;And I got scared.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Her bottom lip trembled.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Oh, Jesse,&rdquo; I murmured, stroking her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s okay.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I was just havin&rsquo; a bad dream.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Her glassy blue-green eyes stared at mine.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You sure?&rdquo; she asked me.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m sure,&rdquo; I falsely cheerily replied, wiping a tear from her cheek.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>My eyes lingered to my floor-to-ceiling windows, where, outside, the sun began to peep from underneath the rolling hills.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;C&rsquo;mon, Jesse, let&rsquo;s go surprise your Mama and make pancakes for everyone,&rdquo; I decided, getting up.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Yeah!&rdquo; she agreed enthusiastically like a six-year old would be, following me like a little sheep.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>For about a month now, my life adjusted to this new house.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Mr. and Mrs. Smithers took me in after my Pa&rsquo;s last rage, where R.C. nearly killed him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>R.C. fled from Greenwood after informing Sheriff Smith what he&rsquo;d done, and moved to start his life over in Jackson.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Pa is still either in Greenwood Leflore hospital, or at East  Mississippi State  Hospital where he&rsquo;ll stay there for alcohol treatment.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Sheriff Smith told me about the plans for Pa, because Pa was in no state to talk to anyone, and he probably still isn&rsquo;t.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Honestly, I don&rsquo;t want to see Pa until he&rsquo;s better, so I told Sheriff Smith to not tell me anything until my Pa is back to his normal self.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Jesse is the youngest of Mr. and Mrs. Smithers&rsquo; children, with curly dark brown hair that bounces with every step, and a smile that warms everybody&rsquo;s heart.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Her identical twin ten-year old brothers, Josh and John, have black hair with brown eyes, and will only shut up if some sort of food is shoved into their mouths.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Both of them are spitting images of their father, who has the same black hair, and brown eyes, yet towers over everybody in the house.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>His wife is tall too, with shoulder-length brown hair, and green eyes.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Mr. Smithers owns a jewelry store in Greenwood, so I didn&rsquo;t move to a different town, just a different house, on East Claiborne Avenue, the Yazoo about a quarter of a mile south of us.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Speaking of it, their house is a two story mansion, with a huge wrap-around porch with Roman-style pillars to support it.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Early in the morning, when the sun strikes it, the house glows and sparkles like a slab of gold, and the floor-to-ceiling windows flood the whole house with light.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Is this the right pan?&rdquo; Jesse asked, holding up a cast iron skillet.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I squinted to look at it, then replied, &ldquo;That&rsquo;ll be fine.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>A half-hour later, the scent of homemade pancakes woke everyone else up, the kitchen abuzz and lit up from the sun&rsquo;s rays.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Around the kitchen table, pancakes were passed around, syrup was fought over, and blueberries were stacked high on top of it all.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Mmmmm, Jesse,&rdquo; Mrs. Smithers told her daughter, taking a bite of one.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;They&rsquo;re delicious.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi helped too, Mama,&rdquo; Jesse replied, squirting syrup all over her pancake.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well thank you, then, Naomi,&rdquo; Mrs. Smithers said, winking at me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I blushed, and smiled, saying &ldquo;You&rsquo;re welcome.&rdquo; <br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Uuuuggghhh&hellip; these taste burnt!&rdquo; Josh remarked.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s worse than Pa&rsquo;s cooking, Jesse!&rdquo; John added.<span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><span style="">&nbsp;</span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>It was normal Josh and John behavior, but after seeing the look on their mother&rsquo;s face, they said quickly, in unison, &ldquo;We&rsquo;re just joking Jesse, they&rsquo;re great.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Good, &lsquo;cause you&rsquo;re doing the dishes,&rdquo; she retorted, pouting a bit.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The Smithers didn&rsquo;t own a maid, like I thought they would, because I knew people from their class had them.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>After a few days here, I concluded that they just wanted to input responsibility into their children.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;They were very good, my little angel,&rdquo; Mr. Smithers said to his daughter, reaching over to ruffle her hair.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Stop it, Daddy!&rdquo; she laughed.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m off to work now, dear,&rdquo; he said before getting up, putting his plate into the sink, and kissing his wife on the cheek.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;See you Dad!&rdquo; Josh and John shouted together, waving from the table, while Jesse ran over and hugged him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>After pulling her off, he looked at me, like he was expecting me to do the same thing, but I got this look everyday, and it always ended the same way.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll see you when you get home today, right?&rdquo; he asked, almost sternly.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Yes, <em style="">sir</em>,&rdquo; I answered, emphasizing sir a little more than I should have, but still wearing my fake smile mask.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>He tipped his head towards all of us, saying, &ldquo;Have a good day!&rdquo; then stepped out the front door.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Greenwood High greeted me an hour later, after dropping off Jesse, Josh, and John at their elementary school.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>As I walked up to it, its immense building looked down upon me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Other teenagers littered the front lawn, laughing in loud voices, trying to drown out the boycotters&rsquo; voices across the street, who were there everyday, trying to boycott school integration.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>They yelled the same hateful jeers or held up picket signs, with mottos like, &ldquo;Race Mixing is Communism,&rdquo; &ldquo;Close Mixed Schools&rdquo; &ldquo;Keep City Schools White&rdquo; and &ldquo;We Want Equal but Segregation&rdquo;.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Brown verses Board of Education was old news, but white folks refused to accept the decision.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Hey, Naomi,&rdquo; a girl name Krista said, stopping me as I tried to go inside.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You probably didn&rsquo;t, but did you hear about the group of Negros who thought they could walk into our schools down in Jackson?&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><span style=""></span>&ldquo;Oh,&rdquo; I said, stunned by her word choice.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No, I didn&rsquo;t.&rdquo; I added bluntly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Yeah, that&rsquo;s why that riot is even bigger today,&rdquo; she explained, jerking her head across the street.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I suppose,&rdquo; I said dully.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;See you in chemistry.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I knew for a fact that Krista&rsquo;s family was filthy rich farmers, who expected their daughter to be the Valedictorian her senior year, and go off to college in her brother&rsquo;s footsteps.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Krista looked and acted like a pug, so naturally, some days I wanted to kick her extremely hard.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>And yet, she took nearly all the same classes as me, though I was lucky to only see her once a day in chemistry after lunch.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The girl had a brain, that was undeniable, but she also carried the attitude that she was superior to everybody and everything else.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I finally decided to put forth effort in my classes when I was thirteen, still living in my shack.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>One day at school, we had an assembly put on by some of the faculty of Ole Miss, explaining how everybody sitting there, women included, could have an opportunity there to have an education.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I was stunned, yet motivated from that point on.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I wanted to do something in my life, and achieve something that R.C. never had.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Despite everything happening at home my freshman, sophomore, and a bit of my junior year, I focused on schoolwork.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Everyday I&rsquo;d stay after school in the library, working until they kicked me out.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>When that happened, I walked to the public one, where I finished my work, then walked home to my torture chamber.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Now days, I can walk home and finish all my homework in the comfort of my peaceful room. <br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>As I whirled my combination of my school locker, a crazy, insane thought crossed me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><em style="">What if I was the Valedictorian?</em><span style="">&nbsp; </span>I shock my head as the locker clicked open.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>There could be no way, despite my high average grades&hellip; Krista definitely had better grades then me&hellip; But still&hellip;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>BRRRIINGGG!<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I jumped as the first bell rang, snapping me out of my trance.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>And yet, as I headed to English, the thought of being the best, loved by all, enthralled me even more.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>After school, while I waited for Jesse, Josh, and John, my thoughts lingered to Hiram Hillburn, the one person who actually understood half of me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Did he ever think of me when he was alone, and lonely?<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Was he ever lonely?<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Somehow, I doubted it.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I should&rsquo;ve said more, done more, or something at our last meeting before he headed off to Arizona.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Tears stung at my eyes as Jesse spotted me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi!&rdquo; she cried, running over to hug me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Quickly I wiped away the tears as I embraced her, John and Josh sulking behind her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;What&rsquo;re you guys hidin&rsquo; from us?&rdquo; I asked them, beginning to walk as Jesse slipped her hand into mine.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Both of them cast guilty looks at each other from beside me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Finally, Josh spoke up.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We got ourselves in detention tomorrow.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;For fightin&rsquo;,&rdquo; John added, kicking a pebble.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Why?&rdquo; I asked wearily, as Jesse giggled.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I glared at her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well&hellip;&rdquo; Josh started, looking hopefully at John, who wore a complete poker face.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;&rsquo;Cause of you, Naomi,&rdquo; he muttered, his head downcast.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Why?&rdquo; Jesse asked in an excited tone before I could stop her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;David Stonebrecker kept teasin&rsquo; us that you&hellip; live with us,&rdquo; John said flatly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;&rsquo;Bet&rsquo;cha guys have fun with her&rsquo; and all sorts of crap like that.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Then,&rdquo; interjected Josh, &ldquo;he has the nerve to ask us if you are single, and if you are, try and get both of you together.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I snorted, unable to contain myself, as Jesse laughed hysterically and Josh and John exchanged grins.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;So you two beat him up all &lsquo;cause of that?&rdquo; I asked, both amused and mad at their foolishness.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No,&rdquo; Josh said sheepishly, a shadow crossing his face.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;He then&hellip; umm&hellip; said nasty things about you.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Like &lsquo;I&rsquo;m surprised she didn&rsquo;t turn out like her father&rsquo; and &lsquo;How does she use the bottle?&rsquo;&rdquo; John said full of anger.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I froze momentarily, locked in fear; I was twelve, when Pa slammed the beer down on the table so hard it shattered, and then throttling my throat&hellip;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Why would he say those things?&rdquo; Jesse asked.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Not wanting to scare them in any way, I just said calmly, &ldquo;&rsquo;Cause some kids are just plain mean.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;So then we beat him up,&rdquo; Josh said bitterly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;He ain&rsquo;t gonna mess with us again.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Inwardly, I groaned, ready to see the house.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Finally, we got on the block, and I told them, &ldquo;I&rsquo;ve got homework to do when we get there.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>When we arrived, I fled to my room, locking my door, and allowing my breathing to become more normal.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I stared out at the hills, angry at myself.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><em style="">I </em>was the cause of John and Josh&rsquo;s detentions; if I hadn&rsquo;t been living here then&hellip; Mr. and Mrs. Smithers knew about my shadowy past, but we agreed to keep it quiet from the kids.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Mr. Smithers, especially, was very touchy about it.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>What did he expect though?<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Nothing is buried in a small town!<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Damn them!&rdquo; I whispered, as Hiram&rsquo;s face came into focus.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Damn them all!&rdquo;<br><span style="font-size: 18pt;">Chapter Two</span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>As the weeks dragged on, the Mississippi heat cooled to a steady breeze, and talk of Thanksgiving plans were in the air.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Last year,&rdquo; Jesse explained, &ldquo;Our house was so full of people it was hard to just walk around!<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Oooohhh&hellip; and Mama made the best strawberry cheesecake, Naomi; you&rsquo;ll have to try it!&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I will,&rdquo; I told her, with my fake grin on.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>She hugged me, and then ran off.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>My heart fluttered with discomfort because as much real love that girl gave out, I rejected it, with my heart of stone.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>What I truly wanted was to be invisible, away from the Smithers, everyday, not just Thanksgiving.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I didn&rsquo;t belong here; Mr. Smithers implied just that the night Josh and John told him about their detentions.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You didn&rsquo;t tell them the truth, did you?&rdquo; he asked me, his voice low and panicky.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No,&rdquo; I responded, embarrassed.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I shut everything up.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Good girl,&rdquo; he whispered.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I don&rsquo;t want my children to see you as a negative influence.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I understand,&rdquo; I lied, underneath my boiling anger.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Why Mr. Smithers wanted to stay so hush-hush about everything always crossed my mind, but knowing the truth made me feel sick.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He only wanted me here to help his kids, in exchange for a roof over my head.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>There was no reason to ever think he wanted me to be part of his family, but he didn&rsquo;t try to love me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Cold rejection built up on my heart, and I just began to ignore Mr. Smithers.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><span style=""></span>Besides my flat out rejection, I didn&rsquo;t want to hang around for Thanksgiving because I hadn&rsquo;t celebrated it since I was eight.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>It was no big deal to me, but I didn&rsquo;t want to create awkward situations for anyone, and stir up old rumors.<br><span style=""></span><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The Monday before Thanksgiving, I walked into school with a sense of anticipation; everybody gossiped about their plans, and the teachers themselves were more excited, getting off-subject much more easily.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>In chemistry, Krista described in vivid detail her plans on going to California to visit her whole family.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Unfortunately,&rdquo; she said in a loud, carrying whisper, &ldquo;I&rsquo;m going to have to leave Greenwood tomorrow, as my train will take a few days to get there&hellip; No doubt we&rsquo;ll be in first class&hellip;&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Mr. Breech, our chemistry teacher, turned at her and barked, &ldquo;If you&rsquo;d like to talk Krista, which I&rsquo;m so sure you love to do, how about you just stand up and announce whatever important fact you have on your mind whenever you want.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Now shut up or I&rsquo;ll send you to the dean!&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I choked back a laugh as other people snickered.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Silence!&rdquo; Mr. Breech boomed and his command was put into effect immediately.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>It was too bad that Krista had been shut up when she had, &lsquo;cause if she had uttered one more word, I was gonna chuck half my lunch at her hair in its perfect perm.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Tuesday and Wednesday flew by too, and Krista&rsquo;s absence may have contributed to the weather lapsing into an Indian summer, bringing back the Mississippi humidity for a few days.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I woke up Thursday to the smell of turkey roasting in the oven, and naturally, followed the scent to the source.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Hello, Mrs. Smithers,&rdquo; I said politely.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Can I help you with anything?&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>She shook her head, smiling at me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi,&rdquo; she said soothingly, &ldquo;you do enough around here as it is.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>You&rsquo;re supposed to be like&hellip; like my own daughter.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Her words chipped off a bit of the stone on my heart, and that chunk allowed something to sting me, because I sure wasn&rsquo;t actin&rsquo; like her daughter.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>But I wasn&rsquo;t her daughter.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I was my Mama&rsquo;s daughter.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Besides, her husband had different thoughts of me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well, I like helpin&rsquo; out,&rdquo; I replied with a smile.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Besides, you know I love to cook.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>She rolled her eyes and thrust me Julia Child&rsquo;s <u>Mastering the Art of French Cooking</u> at me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I was just about to begin making the green-bean casserole.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Let&rsquo;s make the cream of mushroom.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The rest of the morning was a blur of cooking and cleaning, with help from Jesse, John, and Josh.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Around eleven o&rsquo;clock, Mr. Smither&rsquo;s parents arrived, knocking on the door.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll get it!&rdquo; Mr. Smithers said harshly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He arrived in the kitchen a minute later, smiling, as Jesse ran over and gave her grandparents hugs.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Instinctively, I stayed busy doing some dishes while everyone greeted each other.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Now who is this?&rdquo; Jesse&rsquo;s grandfather asked, shaking my shoulder.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Wanting to melt away into a puddle on the floor, I squeaked, &ldquo;My name is Naomi.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;She&rsquo;ll be staying with us for a while,&rdquo; Mr. Smithers said matter-of-factly, leading him away from me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Learning how to take care of the house?<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Yes, that&rsquo;s good,&rdquo; Mr. Smithers&rsquo; father commented as he shook off Mr. Smithers.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No, sir,&rdquo; I said politely, though I wanted to scream at him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I need a place to stay and finish up at Greenwood High.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well, Ron, I never saw you takin&rsquo; in street people,&rdquo; Jesse&rsquo;s grandfather said, as I dropped a dish in the sink with a huge CLANK!<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I resisted the urge to glare at him, but I continued with the dishes as he addressed Jesse, &ldquo;How have you been little girl?&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Good,&rdquo; Jesse replied.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;C&rsquo;mon upstairs, Grampa, I&rsquo;ll show you my new-&ldquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No,&rdquo; her dad replied curtly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You&rsquo;ll stay down here.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Fine,&rdquo; she retorted.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Watch this Grampa!&rdquo; Jesse spun around in circles, nearly knocking over her mother.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Out,&rdquo; she said sternly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Mrs. Smithers looked at her husband.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Take them into the dining room.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>As more of the Smithers&rsquo; relatives filled in, I told everyone the same alibi: The Smithers are allowing me to stay here to finish high school, and yes, I help out with the housework because they are giving me this opportunity.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>There was no need to mention my murky past, or surname, as &ldquo;I&rsquo;m Naomi,&rdquo; satisfied them.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Around one o&rsquo;clock, about forty people smashed into three tables the Smithers had set up: one in the dining room, one in the living room, and one in the kitchen.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>All the prepared food was scattered across all the tables.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Attention, everyone!&rdquo; Mr. Smithers half-yelled throughout the three rooms. &ldquo;Let&rsquo;s say grace.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>We all bowed our heads and followed his lead.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>When Mr. Smithers finished, he yelled, &ldquo;Halleluiah! Let&rsquo;s eat!&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Between all three tables, all the food eventually got passed around.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I stacked turkey on top of steaming mashed potatoes and drenched it in gravy.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>By the time the green bean casserole had circulated to me, only about a quarter of it was left.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The atmosphere was light and jovial with all the rooms buzzing with conversation.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Somehow, I ended at the table with Mr. Smithers and his father, along with other relatives that I didn&rsquo;t know.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I kept my mouth shut as I listened to other snippets of conversations.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Though I was surrounded by forty other people, I felt lonesome, like a foreign alien.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Can you pass me the wine, Alice?&rdquo; a man asked across from me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I twitched and felt sick to my stomach as a bottle waved in front of me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You&rsquo;re such a dirty scum bag, prostitute!&rdquo; he roared, the beer shaking in his fist.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Runnin&rsquo; off in the middle of the night, seein&rsquo; some man.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I&rsquo;m tellin&rsquo; you right now, if that son of a bitch brings his face down here, I&rsquo;m gonna blow his brains out.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>You hear me?&rdquo; he bellowed, smashing the bottle over my head, falling into darkness&hellip;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Yet there was light&hellip; And about a dozen faces staring at me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I was still shaking violently, an endless earthquake, and my breathing came in sharp, quick puffs.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m&hellip; sorry,&rdquo; I whispered, bending over to retrieve my fork and knife that hit the floor.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Slowly, everybody started talking again, but cast quizzical looks at me every few minutes.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Are you okay?&rdquo; asked an old lady next to me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m fine, thank you,&rdquo; I said weakly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Why did I have to expose that side of me?<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The Smithers know I&rsquo;m already&hellip; like that, but the rest of them&hellip;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I was pulled out of my trance as I heard Mr. Smithers say, &ldquo;No.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Please pass it, Viktor,&rdquo; Mr. Smither&rsquo;s father pleaded, staring longingly at the wine that was down on our end.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No!&rdquo; Mr. Smithers said harshly, and, noticing the commotion he was causing, said quickly, &ldquo;Just keep it down there, everything&rsquo;s okay.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He looked mad, perhaps the angriest I had already seen him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We can talk about it later,&rdquo; he told his father, who didn&rsquo;t say another thing.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I guess I wasn&rsquo;t the only person keeping secrets.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Following dinner, dessert was served.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Abiding to Jesse&rsquo;s wish, I took a piece of strawberry cheesecake, and agreed that it was delicious.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Too lazy to do anything afterwards, everybody just sat back, enjoying the day.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Eventually Jesse and her cousins spotted me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Did you have some cheesecake?&rdquo; she asked brightly.<span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>As I answered, &ldquo;Yes,&rdquo; her face lit up.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Ain&rsquo;t it the best?&rdquo; she asked.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Of course!&rdquo; I replied.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We&rsquo;re gonna play with my dolls now, Naomi,&rdquo; she told me, running off giggling, her cousins trailing her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Later in the evening, the relatives slowly left, with heartily, &ldquo;Goodbyes,&rdquo; and &ldquo;See you laters.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>By nine o&rsquo;clock, everyone had left; I was helping Mr. and Mrs. Smithers cleaning up, while Josh, John, and Jesse fought over the remaining desserts.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>By nine thirty, all of us were sent to bed, and I only went because Mrs. Smithers demanded that I did.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I lay down to sleep, and though I was exhausted, I couldn&rsquo;t sleep, because thoughts of beer and broken glass kept littering my thoughts.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Restless, I decided to go downstairs to make a cup of warm milk.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>When I was halfway down the stairs, though, I heard Mr. And Mrs. Smithers arguing from the kitchen.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;&hellip; he&rsquo;s not stable,&rdquo; Mr. Smithers was saying.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You couldn&rsquo;t have let him just have one?&rdquo; his wife asked wearily.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No, because&hellip; it just gets into his blood&hellip; And anyway, look what happened today with <em style="">her</em>.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>It was an embarrassment!&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We just need to tell them the truth then,&rdquo; she snapped.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;She&rsquo;s a fine girl; I don&rsquo;t see why you can&rsquo;t get over her past.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No!<span style="">&nbsp; </span>We&rsquo;d get even more awkward questions, unearthing more&hellip;&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Why, then, did you take her in the first place?&rdquo; Mrs. Smithers cried, exasperated.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I didn&rsquo;t,&rdquo; he muttered gruffly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You did.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I tiptoed back to my room, more stone building up on my heart.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I flopped down on my bed, and cried silently into my pillow, knowing that I was the one thing that nobody, not even Hiram Hillburn would want.<br><br>  <span style="font-size: 18pt;">Chapter Three</span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>For the rest of the weekend, I avoided all the Smithers, Jesse included.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I did &ldquo;homework&rdquo; both during the day and the night, when in reality, I just sat in my room, rotting away.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Sunday night, I was sick of being cooped up, so I snuck out of the house and visited the bridge.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Quieter than the softest mouse, I made it out of the house and ran as fast as I could to the bridge.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>When I arrived, the colorless Yazoo swirled beneath me, receiving my tears that fell like pouring rain.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Mama&rsquo;s face etched itself into my mind, bringing the reminder of her love for me along with it.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>All of my anger, all my unhappiness, it vanished in eventually, and everything was okay for a moment, although it could&rsquo;ve been days, weeks, or even months, because I knew my Mama was in Heaven, and she loved me.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><span style="">&nbsp; </span>I left the bridge before the sun began to come up, and snuck back inside, unnoticed and fell asleep.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Less than two hours later, I awoke like a zombie and headed for school with Jesse, Josh, and John, completely exhausted.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I had a feeling that today was gonna be a hard one. <br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>When I arrived at school, the protestors were louder than ever, and the students were in a state of chaos tellin&rsquo; their friends what they did and ate over the weekend.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I ate myself a whole turkey, Gibbons!&rdquo; one boy shouted across the lawn.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>At my locker, I heard Krista explaining in full detail to her friends her trip.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;The coast was gorgeous, though it was a bit too cold to swim.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Obviously, the food was delicious, but I didn&rsquo;t eat too much, you know, &lsquo;cause I must keep my figure.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I slammed my locker, causing some people to jump, and headed to English.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;As you know,&rdquo; Mrs. Kale began after the second bell rang, &ldquo;Your finals will be on the Thursday before you get off for break, and the results will be in the next day, Friday.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Our classroom sounded like a herd of noisy cows, as I kept my mouth shut, but silently agreed with my classmates.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>As much as I loved my education, finals were not on my list of &ldquo;likes&rdquo;.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Silence!&rdquo; she barked.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I would&rsquo;ve thought that you all would&rsquo;ve given this more thought.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>But since you had absolutely no idea, I&rsquo;m just giving you all a heads up of what is to come.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Now, please turn in your literary analysis!&rdquo; <br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Every other teacher began their class in a similar way.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>By the time chemistry rolled around, nobody wanted to hear another word about finals, though we all knew we still had more lectures to come.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Your finals will be on the Thursday before your break,&rdquo; Mr. Breech recited dully.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m sure you all are tired of hearing this.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>So, I&rsquo;m trying to enthuse all of you to do well, because the person who scores the highest on the final will get a tour of Ole Miss, and attend a science lecture.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I couldn&rsquo;t believe what I was hearing!<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Someone would get to shadow Ole Miss for a day!<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Mr. Breech had to have connections there, because I doubted they let anyone do that.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The experience would be unforgettable, sitting in a room full of collaege kids, listening to a professor, a professional, explain something.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Plus, I&rsquo;d probably be in the paper, known as the smart chemistry girl who survived a brutal childhood.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I&rsquo;d be accepted as I was, not judged by anyone and loved by all.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I had to win.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Even though the finals were still three weeks away, I went home that night and studied every subject, isolating myself from everyone else, something not entirely new.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I still helped make, and clean up dinner, and did other miscellaneous chores, but when I wasn&rsquo;t working, I was studying.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>For those next three weeks, the pattern remained constant: eat, sleep, study, eat, sleep, and study.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I focused on chemistry a lot though, because I wanted that prize more than almost anything I&rsquo;d wanted before.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>It kept me motivated, dedicated, and full of zeal about chemistry.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>During the rare &ldquo;family time&rdquo; I had, I found myself slipping away from them, yearning to go on the bridge or study some more.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Some nights I still snuck out to the bridge, though it started to become a little chilly out.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I talked to Jesse, John, and Josh everyday, on the way to and from school, so I stayed in touch with them, and all of them really wanted for me to win too.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>When the Thursday before break arrived, silently and quickly, I tried to act normal.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>As I dropped Jesse, John, and Josh off at school, Jesse said, &ldquo;Good luck, Naomi!&rdquo; and hugged me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You&rsquo;ll be the best,&rdquo; Josh said, punching my arm.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Don&rsquo;t worry about it,&rdquo; John added, punching my arm also.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;See you!&rdquo; they said in unison, dragging Jesse off me.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Thanks, guys,&rdquo; I called after them.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>By the time I reached Greenwood High, my stomach had tons of butterflies and I kept biting my nails.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>For once, the lawn outside wasn&rsquo;t full of loud groups of people; in fact, it was like a graveyard, almost eerie.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Across the street, the protesters shouted the loudest they had ever, and could be heard from inside our school, adding to the tangible stress that could be felt inside.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Before our first exam, our principal, Mr. Simmons, marched outside and yelled at the boycotters to come a different day.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We have students about to take finals!&rdquo; he bellowed, so they grudgingly left.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Nobody tried to talk to anyone inside; even Krista was shut up, her nose in a book.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I dragged myself to English, dreading the second bell.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Eventually, the first bell rang throughout the school&hellip; and then&hellip; the second bell signaled the beginning of all exams.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Feeling sick, I began my English one.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>All morning long, I took exams, my nerves calmed down by the middle of each one.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Finally, a bell rang, releasing everybody for a half-hour lunch break.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The cafeteria wasn&rsquo;t meant to support all of us, so I just sat down by my locker, and tried to stuff food down my throat while I reviewed my chemistry notes.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The bell rang again, my food almost heaving out of my stomach.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>My pulse quickened, and my palms began to sweat as I walked to chemistry.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Feeling like I was in a dream, I somehow found my way to my seat, awaiting the inevitable.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The awful bell rang, and Mr. Breech began his discourse while handing out the exams.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The only word I heard him say was, &ldquo;Go.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>In a swift motion, I flipped the paper over and began to answer the questions&hellip;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Feeling semi-confident after chemistry, I completed my last two exams, so by the time I got home, it was pretty late.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;How&rsquo;d you do?&rdquo; Jesse asked, running over and hugging me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Pretty good,&rdquo; I replied, following her to the kitchen table.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>As I sat down, I realized how ravenously hungry I was, so I grabbed a huge plate of spaghetti.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I missed some in U.S. History, I know that,&rdquo; I told everyone.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I missed at least one in English and&hellip; I&rsquo;ll just have to wait for the results of chemistry and all m other classes tomorrow.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m sure you did great,&rdquo; Josh piped up.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;&rsquo;Cause you only spent how much time studyin&rsquo;?&rdquo; John asked.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Everybody, Mr. Smithers included, laughed.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>After dinner, I fell asleep fairly quickly, dreaming of graded papers, beer bottles, and my mothers face weaving in and out of everything.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The next day, every teacher handed back our finals, and explained certain questions that multiple people got wrong.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I only missed some questions here and there, but all together, it didn&rsquo;t really affect my overall semester grade.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Anybody in chemistry was excited to find out the winner, and by the afternoon, the anticipation was even greater, because the best scorer hadn&rsquo;t had class yet, and there were only two chemistry classes in the afternoon.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Our chemistry class was so energized, talking loudly in high, fast voices.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>When the bell rang, a few girls, Krista included, screamed softly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Mr. Breech took roll call slowly, and I began to shake uncontrollably, both giddy and anxious.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Across the room, Krista looked like her normal smug self, yet there was fear in her eyes.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;The moment you&rsquo;ve all been waiting for,&rdquo; Mr. Breech announced, grabbing our attention without even the snap of his fingers.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m pleased to announce the highest scorer on our final is in this class.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>And the winner is&hellip;&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I thought.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Naomi Rydell.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Krista Burnham!&rdquo; he said, as she screamed and jumped up and down.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>All my giddiness deflated and shriveled up like an old balloon.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>All my breath temporarily left my body.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I was dumbstruck: Krista, winning?<span style="">&nbsp; </span><em style="">I</em> was supposed to win.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Fury gained me my breath back.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I needed to see my exam, to see how much worse I had done than Krista.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>When Mr. Breech handed my paper back, he smiled, saying, &ldquo;Well done.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Resisting the urge to slap him, I glanced at my score: a ninety-nine percent.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Appalled, I leafed through it until I found my mistake: I wrote down uranium&rsquo;s atomic number rather than its mass number.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Krista, on the other hand, danced around the room, bragging about her perfect score, while her admirers congratulated her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I threw her my dirtiest look, and tangled myself into a well of self-loathing.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I did all right on my other exams, but they hardly mattered; the blow of not getting that opportunity really hit me hard.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>On the way home, I wasn&rsquo;t the only person shut up.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>John and Josh kept quiet, a miracle within itself.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Jesse was the only one excited about break.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We&rsquo;re gonna put up a Christmas tree tonight!<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Mama and Daddy promised me!&rdquo; <br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I nodded, giving her a warm smile, grateful that she wasn&rsquo;t asking me about my results.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>When we got home, the twins headed up to their rooms, while Jesse followed me into mine, continuously talking.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Dinner was a quiet affair, the Smithers noticing my ugly mood.<span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>In the middle of dinner, John spoke up.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He looked extremely pale, and looked really sick to his stomach.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi, is it true that your Pa was-is- an alcoholic?&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Johnathan!&rdquo; Mr. Smithers snapped.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We don&rsquo;t speak like that at the table!&rdquo; <br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>He glared at me, but John was persistent.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I don&rsquo;t care if he was Naomi; I only want the truth.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Josh gave me the most pitiful face while their father&rsquo;s face turned bright red.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He moved his head slightly back and forth as to tell me to tell them no.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Yes,&rdquo; I said calmly, and for some odd reason, it felt good to lift the burden off my chest.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Why?&rdquo; I asked, looking right at him.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well&hellip;&rdquo; he began, looking uncomfortable.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You know David Stonebrecker?<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He only knew that stuff he said about you &lsquo;cause his mother&rsquo;s a nurse at Greenwood Leflore hospital, and&hellip;&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;That&rsquo;s enough!&rdquo; Mr. Smithers shouted, as a loud knock echoed on the door.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll get it!&rdquo; I shouted, sprinting to the door before anyone could object.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I flung the front door open to see R.C. standing there with a cigarette in his mouth.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>My mouth dropped open and he tried to walk inside.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Spit it out before you come inside,&rdquo; I ordered him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He obligated, and I let him in.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Why are you here?&rdquo; I demanded, hearing the Smithers filing in behind me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>His expression didn&rsquo;t change at all as he said flatly, &ldquo;The bottle killed him.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No,&rdquo; I whispered, my eyes tearing up. <br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Who is this?&rdquo; Mr. Smithers cried, pointing at R.C.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;My brother,&rdquo; I choked out, tears streaming down my face.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Oh,&rdquo; Mr. Smithers said, &ldquo;I thought you were supposed to be in Jackson?&rdquo; he asked R.C.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;&rsquo;Supposed to,&rdquo; R.C. grunted.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Now I gotta come up here and arrange Pa&rsquo;s funeral.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>With those words, I ran off to my room sobbing, nobody there to hold me.<br><br>  <span style="font-size: 18pt;">Chapter Four</span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I went downstairs a half hour later, because R.C. was refusing to stay here.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I can find me my own place to stay.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&lsquo;Sides, I won&rsquo;t be up here long.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He walked out, waving goodbye to me.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Feeling miserable, I went and laid in bed, allowing memories of Pa to wash over me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He thoroughly abused me over and over, but underneath those scars, he was still my Pa, and I loved him, even if it was a tiny fraction of love.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>R.C. said he wanted the funeral to be on Sunday, with Pa being buried next to Ma.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I want you to come out tomorrow and help organize this too,&rdquo; he told me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll probably be in the sheriff&rsquo;s office.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Come around eleven.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>To my surprise, Jesse never came to my room in once.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I heard her, though, arguing with her parents downstairs, wanting to see me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Part of me wanted to see her, but the other part of me wanted to be alone.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The one person I wanted to see, more than anyone in the world was&hellip; Mama.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I waited until I heard no movement in our house to sneak our.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I ran like a free spirit to the bridge, the harsh wind stinging my skin, and I broke down when I arrived there.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>My sobs echoed off the full moon, which acted like my spotlight.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The spotlight&hellip; I could be in it.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Tonight I could make it happen. <span style="">&nbsp;</span>One tragedy after another.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The Yazoo was pretty deep, especially in the middle&hellip;But then Emmett Till&rsquo;s body seemed to be floating out from the Tallahatchie, and fear jerked me back into reality: The reality that my Pa was dead.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Mama,&rdquo; I whispered, the tears on my cheeks glistening in the dark.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;He&rsquo;s gone&hellip;&rdquo; I completely lost it again, my heart of stone chipping away bit by bit.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I cried endlessly, the pain of losing him stabbing me hard, and I sobbed until a hand pulled me away from the edge of the bridge.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Aaaaahhhh!&rdquo; I screamed.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi,&rdquo; R.C. said roughly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Shut up.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>You&rsquo;ll wake the remaining sleeping people in Greenwood.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;What are you doing here?&rdquo; I asked, fresh tears pouring out of my eyes.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I was about to ask you the same thing,&rdquo; he asked coolly, dragging me off the bridge.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well, <em style="">I</em> was there, thinkin&rsquo; about Mama and Pa and my life as it is,&rdquo; I said defensively.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;What made you go out and protect me, somthin&rsquo; you haven&rsquo;t done recently?&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I asked him in my anger.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>He stared at me with loathing, then something else, that looked like remorse.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>After a deep breath, he began, &ldquo;After I left your home-&ldquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;House,&rdquo; I interjected fiercely.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><span style=""></span>&ldquo;Ain&rsquo;t no difference.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;There&rsquo;s a huge difference, R.C., but continue anyway.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;After I left you at your <em style="">house</em>, I brought myself down to Sheriff Smith&rsquo;s office to catch up with him, and we talked &lsquo;bout Pa for a while.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He didn&rsquo;t know until I told him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>While I was there, he got a phone call from Mrs. Smithers, sayin&rsquo; that you had disappeared.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I went out searchin&rsquo; with them, and though I had an idea where you was, I didn&rsquo;t tell them that.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I found you, now I&rsquo;m gonna take you to the sheriff&rsquo;s office, then take you to your house.&rdquo; R.C. finished.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>We walked in silence until he pulled me inside the office, just to show them he found me. &ldquo;It&rsquo;s okay,&rdquo; he told them, when they saw us.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll take her to her house.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I was shivering uncontrollably by the time I saw the house.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Do you still want me to help out tomorrow?&rdquo; I chattered as we made our way to the front door.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Yeah,&rdquo; he replied.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Did you tell Hiram?&rdquo; I asked as he knocked.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>R.C. starred intently at me, sighed, and said, &ldquo;I&rsquo;ll call the sisibaby tonight from the sheriff&rsquo;s office.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Invite him,&rdquo; I whispered stubbornly, as footsteps could be heard from inside.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll do what I can,&rdquo; he snapped as Mrs. Smithers opened the door, hugging me, and thanking R.C., sobbing.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>She gripped me tightly as she pulled me inside, thanking R.C. one more time and shutting the door.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We didn&rsquo;t want to lose you,&rdquo; she whispered, leading me to the couch.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Guilt and shame pulsed through my veins, and I began to sob over and over again.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m sorry,&rdquo; I choked, allowing her to embrace me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I didn&rsquo;t want to cause all this trouble.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;You&rsquo;re safe now, that&rsquo;s what matters,&rdquo; she assured me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I wasn&rsquo;t in any danger in the first place, but I decided not to put it past her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Jesse was cryin&rsquo; so hard, wanting to know where her sister had gone.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The rest of the stones fell off my heart.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Jesse thought of me as her <em style="">sister</em>.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;John and Josh were both very worried too, though they said you probably went on a midnight stroll,&rdquo; she went on.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I smiled weakly, knowing that those twins were half-right.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;And Ron&hellip; well, he noticed you were gone.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>We sat there in our embrace as my tears eventually ceased.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I gently broke away from her, and asked, &ldquo;Mrs. Smithers, why is your husband so&hellip;&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Against you?&rdquo; she finished for me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I nodded, unable to speak.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>She sighed, glancing up at the ceiling.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;He&rsquo;s asleep right now,&rdquo; she said quietly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;But&hellip; it&rsquo;s time you knew the truth.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Ron&rsquo;s father abused the bottle like yours did, and took his anger out on his own son, similarly to your story.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Unlike you, Ron became a very angry teenager, but he took pity on you and took you in.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I believe he was afraid of what you could morph into, like he was, so he tried to keep your past quiet.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>You probably noticed that at Thanksgiving, his father wanted some wine.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Ron flat-out refused, because his father is still not stable, even with one glass of wine.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Everyday, Ron&rsquo;s father is tempted with the bottle, just as Ron is with his temper,&rdquo; she finished softly. <br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m sorry,&rdquo; I whispered sincerely.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m sorry for you,&rdquo; she whispered back.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The next morning, Jesse was ecstatic to see me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I was afraid you had left forever,&rdquo; she said softly as she cried.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I thought you didn&rsquo;t like me anymore.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I would never do that,&rdquo; I promised her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Jesse, you light up my life, you know that?&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;No,&rdquo; she said, filled with awe.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I shouldn&rsquo;t have left you,&rdquo; I told her.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s okay,&rdquo; she whispered, hugging me.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>At eleven o&rsquo;clock, I met R.C. at the sheriff&rsquo;s office, and made Pa&rsquo;s funeral plans.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>We agreed that the ceremony would be short and private, at the same church that Mama&rsquo;s was at.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll talk to the priest today about music,&rdquo; R.C. said.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Is that okay?&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;ll come with you,&rdquo; I told him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Fine,&rdquo; he replied, and as we went to the church, I was dying to ask him who was invited.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Finally I couldn&rsquo;t contain it any longer.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Who&rsquo;s invited?&rdquo; I asked him eagerly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Unenthusiastically, he said, &ldquo;Us, the Smithers, and Hiram and his family.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;He&rsquo;s comin&rsquo;?&rdquo; I asked brightly, a smile crawling on my face.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Yes, they&rsquo;re all comin&rsquo; out and spendin&rsquo; Christmas at their Grampa&rsquo;s.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>They wouldn&rsquo;t have been comin&rsquo; had they not had other plans.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He looked sternly at me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Remember that-&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I know it&rsquo;s still Pa&rsquo;s funeral,&rdquo; I said quietly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Good,&rdquo; he replied as we walked into the church.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>The next morning, I made my way downstairs, where Mrs. Smithers was already preparing lunch for later today.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Hey Naomi,&rdquo; she said quietly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I smiled weakly at her, going over to help her.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I don&rsquo;t need your help,&rdquo; she told me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Go upstairs and get ready or something.&rdquo;<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I followed her command, and sat in my room, waiting to go to the funeral, to see Hiram, and say my final goodbye to my Pa.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Finally, the hour came, and we all walked over to the church, Jesse holding her father&rsquo;s hand and mine.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>When we arrived, at the church, I spotted R.C., who cleaned himself up, and was wearing a suit.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Where&rsquo;d you get that?&rdquo; I asked him curiously.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I have connections,&rdquo; he replied gruffly.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Your Romeo is here,&rdquo; he added in a sick tone.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I spun around and saw Hiram leading his Grampa, parents and four other brothers and sisters over here.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Hiram!&rdquo; I shouted, running over to him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi!&rdquo; he said, opening his arms to embrace me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m so sorry,&rdquo; he whispered as we hugged.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s okay,&rdquo; I said, unlocking from our hug and squeezing his hand.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Get your family over here, and I&rsquo;ll introduce everyone before the services get underway.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Quickly, we brought our families together, and I introduced the Hillburns to the Smithers and R.C.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>As they began to mingle, R.C. muttered to Hiram, &ldquo;Ain&rsquo;t seen you in a while.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>What&rsquo;ve you been up to sisibaby?&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Before Hiram could respond, the church bells rang, and he grabbed my hand.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Can I hold your other hand?&rdquo; Jesse asked innocently.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Of course you can, sister,&rdquo; I replied, smiling.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Everybody filed in the church, the Smithers in front looking awkward, followed Jesse, Hiram, and me, with R.C., who was scowling next to Hiram, and the rest of the Hillburns sat behind us.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The service, like R.C. promised, was short, with the priest preachin&rsquo; about eternal life in Heaven, and the re-birth of our souls.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Tears glistened on my cheeks, but both Jesse and Hiram squeezed my hand tighter when fresh tears fell.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>The funeral concluded in the cemetery, where Pa was placed into the ground next to Mama.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Seeing them next to each other caused me to ponder on their connection they made to one another, and remember that they are together now.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>At least I hoped my Pa was in Heaven.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>He was sorely tempted, and gave in every time.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Slowly, we made our way to my home, where everybody ate lunch.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Jesse befriended Hiram&rsquo;s brothers and sisters fairly quickly, and after lunch, all five of them were running around outside, with the twins chasing them.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Hiram&rsquo;s mother chatted with Mrs. Smithers, who was curious about the desert in Arizona.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>To my surprise, R.C., Mr. Smithers, Hiram&rsquo;s grandfather, and father were all laughing hysterically at something R.C. had said.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Come on,&rdquo; Hiram said gently as he helped me up.<span style="">&nbsp; </span><br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;We&rsquo;ll be outside,&rdquo; I told everybody, though I doubted anyone but R.C. heard me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I grasped his hand and led him outside, past all the screaming kids to the rolling hills in the backyard, where we walked in silence for quite a ways.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;How are things with your Dad and Grampa?&rdquo; I asked him quietly.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Better,&rdquo; he said, gazing at me.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I mean, Dad and I are pretty tight now.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>I don&rsquo;t think Dad and Grampa are ever gonna be like they were when Dad was a kid.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Not since... this summer.&rdquo;<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I didn&rsquo;t need to remember Emmett&rsquo;s horrid lynching at the moment.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Not to be rude then, but why&rsquo;d you come down here?&rdquo; I asked, not wanting to hurt him.<br><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>He didn&rsquo;t look offended at all, and I was relieved.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Many reasons,&rdquo; he explained.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Grampa has been pretty mellow since the summer, and he wanted to see his other grandchildren.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Dad and him fought a bit, but Dad gave in eventually only on certain concessions, but they&rsquo;re really not important for our purpose.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>And&hellip; I really wanted to see you.&rdquo;<br><br>  <span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Before I could say anymore, he pulled me tighter, and my body tingled with excitement.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>There would be plenty of time to catch up with him.<span style="">&nbsp; </span>Right now, this moment was enough, and all my previous worries disappeared; everything turned out all right. I smiled faintly as his lips found mine&hellip;<span style="font-size: 18pt;"></span><br><br>  &nbsp;<br><br>  </div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Readers Write: An Alternative Ending to Mississippi Trial, 1955 by Shelby Wayment]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/readers-write-an-alternative-ending-to-mississippi-trial-1955-by-shelby-wayment.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/readers-write-an-alternative-ending-to-mississippi-trial-1955-by-shelby-wayment.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Sat, 29 May 2010 10:07:14 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/readers-write-an-alternative-ending-to-mississippi-trial-1955-by-shelby-wayment.html</guid><description><![CDATA[Shelby WaymentMapleton Junior High SchoolMapleton, Utah  Term Four Book Project  Mississippi Trial, 1955&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  But barely an hour later they came back in. When the judge asked them if they had a verdict for Bryant and Milam, the foreman stood up. &ldquo;Yes, sir.&rdquo; He cleared his throat and read from a paper he held. & [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div  class="paragraph" style=" text-align: left; ">Shelby Wayment<br />Mapleton Junior High School<br />Mapleton, Utah<br /><br />  Term Four Book Project<br /><br />  <strong style=""><em style="">Mississippi Trial, 1955</em></strong><br /><br />&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  But barely an hour later they came back in. When the judge asked them if they had a verdict for Bryant and Milam, the foreman stood up. &ldquo;Yes, sir.&rdquo; He cleared his throat and read from a paper he held. &ldquo;We find the defendants guilty.&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>A cheer erupted from the back of the courtroom, drowning out J. J. Breland&rsquo; s cries. <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Silence in the court!&rdquo; the judge cried out.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;The sentence is to be a lifetime in prison, case closed.&rdquo; The foreman read from the paper.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;But that&rsquo;s unfair! You can&rsquo;t do that! You have no evidence!&rdquo; J. J. Breland shouted at the judge as the deputy&rsquo;s dragged him from the courtroom.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I felt unbelievably relieved. For the last few minutes of the trial, I was almost sure Bryant and Milam would not be charged with the murder. I glanced over at Grampa who was deathly pale.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Grampa, what&rsquo;s wrong?&rdquo; I asked him, giving him a gentle shake.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>He didn&rsquo;t acknowledge me, so I shook him a little harder.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Grampa, it&rsquo;s okay. The trial&rsquo;s over now, we can go home.&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I grunted as I helped Grampa up and out of the courtroom; which was overfull with people. I happened to glance at Bryant and Milam on my way out and saw them glaring at the crowd of Negroes in the back of the courtroom.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Ruthanne was late coming home from the trial, and I was bracing myself for Grampa to get in a rage and yell and curse at her, but he barely even glanced at her as she walked in the door.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Sorry Mr. Hillburn, but just ya&rsquo;ll sit a bit while I fix ya somethin&rsquo;.&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I stayed in my room while delicious smells wafted up from the kitchen.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Hiram Hillburn! Ya come on down here, I got cha a nice meal fixed up. Ya come on down now, ya hear?&rdquo; Ruthanne called to me as I sat up slowly on the bed.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Normally I would have come running down the stairs like I had when I was a little kid, but something held me back. I walked down the stairs, dreading every step closer to the dining room.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Now ya&rsquo;ll eat up now. I&rsquo;ll be on back tomorrow, so don&rsquo;t ya fret.&rdquo; Ruthanne called to us Grampa and me as from the kitchen.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I sat down next to Grampa at the table, whose face was still as pale as he had been in the courtroom.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Grampa, are you okay?&rdquo; I asked him, ignoring the delicious food Ruthanne had made.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>He just ignored me as he picked up his fork, and slowly stabbed a piece of fried chicken. I turned to my own plate, which looked delicious. <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Something still was bothering me after dinner, so I took a little walk outside to the bridge, hoping to catch Naomi. Instead I saw Ronnie Remington, just passing over the bridge.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Why Harlan Hillburn! Nice to see ya again! I haven&rsquo;t seen ya in such a long time. Where ya been?&rdquo; Ronnie called to me.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m not Harlan, I&rsquo;m Hiram, Harlan&rsquo;s sun!&rdquo; I shouted back.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well, how are ya Harlan?&rdquo; Ronnie asked me.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s Hiram.&rdquo; I reminded him.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well now Hiram, how old are you now?&rdquo; Ronnie questioned.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m sixteen.&rdquo; I told him.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well, sixteen, that&rsquo;s a fine age. Why let&rsquo;s see, sixteen would be half of thirty-six. No, thirty-two, that&rsquo;s it. Why thirty-two, that&rsquo;s a fine age. That&rsquo;s when you become a man who knows what to enjoy in life, and has been around long enough to enjoy the right things. But Harlan, you don&rsquo;t look at all thirty-two. I&rsquo;d said you look about sixteen. How old did you say you were again? Now don&rsquo;t you go saying you&rsquo;re older than you really are. It just isn&rsquo;t polite you know. Thirty-two! You only look half of thirty-two, Harlan!&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m sixteen.&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well now, sixteen. Well you&rsquo;re old enough to drive I figure. See now, oh well Ralph made me promise not to tell.&rdquo;<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Tell what?&rdquo;<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well Ralph did promise, and he can be awfully strict sometimes.&rdquo;<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Tell me Ronnie.&rdquo;<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well see, the other night, late, I was already in bed, but Ralph is a night owl you see, he saw your Grandpa in his blue pickup, with two other men, late one night. Your Grandpa came over, he asked us if we saw anything. I said no, but Ralph told him what he had seen and your Grandpa made us promise not to tell anyone anything.&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;What?&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;That&rsquo;s all I know, honest, Harlan,&rdquo;<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I didn&rsquo;t even bother correcting him as I ran off, back to the house, not knowing what I was supposed to do.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I was almost to the front yard when I saw Naomi run out of her house. <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi?&rdquo; I called.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Hiram!&rdquo; she shouted back, running to me.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi, what&rsquo;s wrong?&rdquo; I asked.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Oh, it&rsquo;s just Pa. He was in one of his moods, him and R.C. they&rsquo;re at each other terribly now. Oh, Hiram, I&rsquo;m frightened!&rdquo; she told me, crying into my shoulder.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Naomi girl! You get back in here right now!&rdquo; her pa called from the house as R.C. stormed past him. <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Even in the faint moonlight you could see the blood all over R.C.&rsquo;s face. I glanced at Naomi&rsquo;s pa who looked no better and was just as bloody. His or R.C.&rsquo;s, I didn&rsquo;t know.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Naomi ran to the house, crying. I felt bad for her, after all she went through it was no wonder she was crying.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I didn&rsquo;t want to stick around after that, so I took off. I was coming around the back of the house when I heard the voices.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;And you&rsquo;re sure the pickup&rsquo;s sold?&rdquo; I heard my Grampa ask.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Yeah, no one will know now. It&rsquo;s far away from here,&rdquo; a voice replied, I wasn&rsquo;t sure who. <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I waited until I heard the door shut and a car drive away, then I stepped into view. I raced up the porch and into the living room where I saw Grampa crying.<span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;What is it Grampa? Who were those men?&rdquo; I asked him.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;They told me he was still alive when I left,&rdquo; he whispered almost so quiet I couldn&rsquo;t hear. <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I didn&rsquo;t want to know what he meant, but in my heart I did. I raced up the stairs where I threw myself on the bed. Then I glanced at the phone. Without knowing what I was doing, I picked it up and dialed my home.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Dad?&rdquo; I asked.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Yeah?&rdquo; he answered, groggily once he picked up the phone.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s me, Hiram. I want to come home.&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>I waited for his answer, but none came.<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;I don&rsquo;t want to stay here any longer.&rdquo; <br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&ldquo;Well, buy yourself a ticket, and come on home, we&rsquo;ve been missing you Hiram.&rdquo;<br /><span style="">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>Before I had always argued with my Dad, but now I truly understood why my Dad had left. <br />  </div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Back from Tonga!]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/back-from-tonga.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/back-from-tonga.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Fri, 28 May 2010 12:17:42 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/back-from-tonga.html</guid><description><![CDATA[A small 'fale' on the island of Foa. [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div ><div style="text-align: center;"><a><img src="http://www.chriscrowe.com/uploads/4/2/4/6/4246043/6627200.jpg" style="margin-top: 10px; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 10px; margin-right: 10px; border-width:1px;padding:3px;" alt="Picture" class="galleryImageBorder" /></a><div style="display: block; font-size: 90%; margin-top: -10px; margin-bottom: 10px;">A small 'fale' on the island of Foa.</div></div></div><div ><div style="text-align: center;"><a><img src="http://www.chriscrowe.com/uploads/4/2/4/6/4246043/2334077.jpg" style="margin-top: 10px; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 10px; margin-right: 10px; border-width:1px;padding:3px;" alt="Picture" class="galleryImageBorder" /></a><div style="display: block; font-size: 90%; margin-top: -10px; margin-bottom: 10px;">On the beach where the massacre of the Port au Prince took place.</div></div></div><div ><div style="text-align: center;"><a><img src="http://www.chriscrowe.com/uploads/4/2/4/6/4246043/6391137.jpg" style="margin-top: 10px; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 10px; margin-right: 10px; border-width:1px;padding:3px;" alt="Picture" class="galleryImageBorder" /></a><div style="display: block; font-size: 90%; margin-top: -10px; margin-bottom: 10px;">The path through the jungle to the Port au Prince Memorial site.</div></div></div><div  class="paragraph" style=" text-align: left; ">Back from Tonga and still jetlagged.&nbsp; Our flight left Tongatapu at 9:00pm on Tuesday night, flew for 90 minutes and landed in Apia, Samoa at 10:00pm MONDAY night.&nbsp; From Samoa, we flew to Los Angeles and landed there at 4:00pm Tuesday afternoon, 5 hours earlier than we left Tonga.&nbsp; Crossing the International Date Line really messed up my internal clock.<br /><br />The trip to Tonga was well worth it.&nbsp; I've posted some photos from there.&nbsp; More than anything, it helped me learn about the place, the language, and the culture.&nbsp; Of course, it was a thrill to see the places where William Mariner had been about 200 years ago.</div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Tonga Update]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit4.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit4.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Wed, 19 May 2010 20:21:42 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit4.html</guid><description><![CDATA[Still in Tonga . . .&nbsp; I'm staying in a 12 x 12 Tongan hut called a "fale" (fall-A). It has walls of woven coconut palms and sits on raised legs about 3 feet off the sand.&nbsp; Right now in Tonga, it's fall, but the temperatures are still around 80 degrees.&nbsp; The island is small, and I've walked or biked most of it, trying to imagine what it was like when William Mariner arrived in 1806.I'm on the second half of my novel, a [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div  class="paragraph" style=" text-align: left; ">Still in Tonga . . .&nbsp; I'm staying in a 12 x 12 Tongan hut called a "fale" (fall-A). It has walls of woven coconut palms and sits on raised legs about 3 feet off the sand.&nbsp; Right now in Tonga, it's fall, but the temperatures are still around 80 degrees.&nbsp; The island is small, and I've walked or biked most of it, trying to imagine what it was like when William Mariner arrived in 1806.<br /><br />I'm on the second half of my novel, and I'm wondering about trying something different with the point of view/narration.&nbsp; Doing something is a little unusual, but it would solve a probelm with how to deal with most of the characters speaking Tongan before Will learned the language himself.&nbsp; Still figuring.</div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[In Search of William Mariner---in Tonga]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit2.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit2.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Sun, 16 May 2010 20:24:42 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit2.html</guid><description><![CDATA[I'm on Foa Island in the Ha'apai island chain in Tonga, now.&nbsp; I arrived Saturday afternoon, after a short flight from the main island of Tongatapu.&nbsp; We're staying in a Tongan fale (hut) about 50 yards from the beach.&nbsp; Trade winds blow pretty steadily from the easter side of the island and keep us comfortable, but definitely not cool.After a long bicycle ride, we found the Port au Prince memorial; it's located just nor [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div  class="paragraph" style=" text-align: left; ">I'm on Foa Island in the Ha'apai island chain in Tonga, now.&nbsp; I arrived Saturday afternoon, after a short flight from the main island of Tongatapu.&nbsp; We're staying in a Tongan fale (hut) about 50 yards from the beach.&nbsp; Trade winds blow pretty steadily from the easter side of the island and keep us comfortable, but definitely not cool.<br /><br />After a long bicycle ride, we found the Port au Prince memorial; it's located just north of the tiny Lifuka Airport, about 300 meters off the road (and there's only one road, and it runs north-south through the center of Lifua and Foa islands.&nbsp; The memorial is overgrown by jungle plants but not so much to hide it completely.&nbsp; It's set at the edge of a small Tongan graveyard, 6 or so graves (mounds of sand, most of them) from the last 50 years or so.&nbsp; I have to admit that it was pretty exciting standing on the beach when William Mariner's ship was looted and burned, and picking up coral that may have been in the bay when his slaughtered crew mates were thrown overboard.&nbsp; After 204 years, there's no trace, of course, of Mariner or the Port au Prince wreck, but still, to stand on the beach where his grand adventure began, well, it was something.</div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[The First Blog]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Thu, 13 May 2010 03:03:13 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/05/post-title-click-and-type-to-edit.html</guid><description><![CDATA[OK, the first blog comes from New Zealand.&nbsp; Rotorua, New Zealand.&nbsp; I'm sitting at a worn old desk in a 4th floor room overlooking a geyser and mudpot field.&nbsp; Never planned to go to New Zealand, but it's on the way to Tonga, which I have planned to go to, obviously.I'm headed to Tonga tomorrow night so I can finish up the field research for the historical novel I've been working on for several years.&nbsp; Actually, it [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div  class="paragraph" style=" text-align: left; ">OK, the first blog comes from New Zealand.&nbsp; Rotorua, New Zealand.&nbsp; I'm sitting at a worn old desk in a 4th floor room overlooking a geyser and mudpot field.&nbsp; Never planned to go to New Zealand, but it's on the way to Tonga, which I have planned to go to, obviously.<br /><br />I'm headed to Tonga tomorrow night so I can finish up the field research for the historical novel I've been working on for several years.&nbsp; Actually, it was a nonfiction book to begin with, but my editors have encouraged me to recast it as a historical novel.&nbsp; I resisted their suggetions for too long, and when I finally started working on the fictional version, I enjoyed it much more than I thought I did.<br /><br />The working title for this novel is ENGLISH PIRATE TONGAN PRINCE, and I'm going to Tonga so I can finish the second part of the novel.&nbsp; Tonga, if you didn't know, is in the South Pacific, about 1000 miles north of New Zealand.&nbsp; Captain James Cook landed there in the 1770s and named the island chain "The Friendly Isles" because of the kind treatment he had received there.&nbsp; He had no way of knowing that the islands would be anything but friendly to the people who followed Cook there.&nbsp; Including the person on whom my book is based.<br /><br /> Anyway, I'm excited to see Tonga.&nbsp; I'll be on a couple islands in the central chain, the Ha'apai Group: Lifuka and Foa.&nbsp; More on that later.</div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[First Post!]]></title><link><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/04/first-post.html]]></link><comments><![CDATA[http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/04/first-post.html#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Sat, 24 Apr 2010 17:38:14 -0700</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.chriscrowe.com/1/post/2010/04/first-post.html</guid><description><![CDATA[Start blogging by creating a new post. You can edit or delete me by clicking under the comments. You can also customize your sidebar by dragging in elements from the top bar. [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[Start blogging by creating a new post. You can edit or delete me by clicking under the comments. You can also customize your sidebar by dragging in elements from the top bar.]]></content:encoded></item></channel></rss>

